Mother Guilt....

Its the night before I fly out to Vegas........and yes, I am feeling mother guilt!!!! Where is the woman who was all excited a few days ago?

It all started with the kids...

Kye told me yesterday that he is going to cry every day that I am gone and will miss me "so much". First stage of mother guilt.

Lu very clingy and demanding, which is unlike him at all. He can most probably feel the anxious levels in the air. Second stage of mother guilt.

Hans told me not to worry about anything, as she will look after the family and make sure everyone behaves. Third stage of mother guilt.

The husband, although supportive and encouraging, has started to become weird and a little stressed. God give me strength!!!!!!!!!! He obviously is starting to feel overwhelmed about working from home, managing the three kids and the house. Is it nasty to say "welcome to my world!".

I just need to breath and keep calm! Last night I sat up and wrote them all notes with a photo of the two of us for each child and the husband. I will leave them on their pillows tonight for them to open before bed.

A gorgeous girlfriend has just sent a text reminding me not to let the mother guilt feeling get in the way of having a fabulous trip. Just over two years ago, she left for 10 days without her kids and husband to climb the great wall of China. She knows exactly how I am feeling. Only another woman would.

However, its time to stand up to the decision I made eight months ago when it felt so easy and now board the plane and enjoy the trip. Thankfully my girlfriend is leaving her kids and husband as well, so we can have a glass of champagne, let it out and get on with the fun.

Onwards and upwards without mother guilt!

See you soon

xxx